A date with silence…

It’d been days since I was ditching her, we had a date long due but I kept shying away till she reminded me of Karma as she knew, I hated to wait. I gave in. She was happy, she had her way again. 

She is silence. Truthful. Composed. Sublime. And what follows is an excerpt of our date.

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*Time: Frozen; Location: The confines of my mind*

She: You’ve been away a lot. 

Me: I like to speak a lot.

She: *laughs* Yeah, you do! The world knows it. But do they know you?

Me: *silent*

She: *laughs some more then stops suddenly* Sorry, I din’t mean to be rude. It just saddens me when you spend so little time with me. When it has always been me who has been there for you, understanding your every thought and every action associated with it.

Me: I like expressing myself, even if I may not be understood! It can be tough at times, but to shy away leaves behind a feeling of what-if and that is never good!

She: Absolutely, you like to express all you think. Whats the point in ever thinking of the what-if you had kept your mouth shut and saved yourself the embarrassment, right?

Me: *smiling* I get your sarcasm missy, but every such embarrassment teaches me a valuable lesson about the mistake I committed that would have evaded me had I embraced you every time I thought of speaking up and taking a risk!

She: So you would rather keep committing mistakes, just for experience sake, when you can simply avoid them?

Me: But then “Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game” has always been my motto.

She: Your naivety isn’t very commonplace in this era of treachery and cunning, you know.

Me: *winking* Who said I am a commoner?

She: *laughing* Someone ever told you that you are quite a charmer?

Me: Yeah, a few have.

She: *laughing and punching me on the arm* And that you are a git as well?

Me: *scratching my head* Me? Really? Ah-haan, who knew!

She: Get lost you!!

Me: *taking her hand* Hey, I know you are amazing and brilliant when it comes to handling the intricacies of life. Its always been you who has helped me grasp at the finer points of any conversation as well as argument. Whatever I have made good of any crappy situation has only been after spending some quality time with you. Whenever I am in a soup, I know you are the ladle that will pull me out. You are my strongest weapon, *pausing*

She: And like always, there comes the BUT…

Me: *smiling* You are like a genie, its amazing what you are capable of, but like a genie’s wishes being numbered, so is your effectiveness unless used sparingly! 

She: *smiling ruefully* I can’t deny the logic behind that even if I wish to!

Me: You know why I love you so much, its because you never lie. You never give me sympathy for sympathy’s sake. You are blunt, sometimes brutal but always pure. 

She: You know why I love you so much, and I should not even be saying it, its because you never hesitate to hit the nail on the head.

Me: *Playfully* Silence appreciating me speaking! Who knew this day would come.

She: *slyly* I always know how to stop that.

Me: Pray tell me, how…

*I fully planted kiss on the lips made me eat the remaining of the sentence, not that I minded.*

*A little while and lots of things-that-are-censored-here later*

Me: Its time. Alas.

She: I will be seeing you soon.

Me: I know, but knowing me not too soon.

She: *winking* Let us see, my friend Destiny may have a little something to do with us meeting sooner you know.

Me: *laughing* The wise have said, patience is a virtue, so behold it love. S’long.

She: *putting a finger to her lips* Shhhhhhhhhhh…..

The dark beckons…

Your bad is my good. Your crimes are my refuge. Your evil is my self. I am, YOU!  not quite, I am a part of you. The one augmented and demonic facet of you that you keep hidden from the prying eyes of the world. 

I am darkness.  Absolute. Pristine. Complete. 

You are in denial if you think I do not reside within your heart! I do. It has been my abode since the first time someone bullied you or teased or insulted you and you could do nothing about it. Remember the surge of fury that raged you? Remember the frustration and anger at your inability to take revenge? It was me, whispering softy to you to fight back.

But you pushed me aside, shunned me away as life’s brighter shades enchanted you. I watched, patiently, as the colors went out and then even the stark black and white gave way to a muddy hue of gray.

I looked on as you battled the intricacies of life, baffled and hurt at your inability again. Inability to drive things the way you see fit. I was there when your bubble of confidence burst. And only when you had to accept that sometimes, no matter what you do, you cant have your way did you remember me again!

I was the shoulder you cried on. The pillar of strength that you rebuilt yourself on. I was the one who gave you focus. I was the one who made you appreciate the clarity within chaos. Every time you hated the past, every tear you shed, every wrong you did, every penance that you paid for made you stronger. All this while it was me who pushed you in the corner, I kept pushing till finally you started pushing back. And while I saw a phoenix rise from the ashes, I leaned back to watch over you again. 

I am darkness. Incessant. Omnipresent. Pure.

All I ask for is acceptance!